Everybody Look At Me

Where do I begin....today's post is brought to you in part by.... ATTENTION SEEKERS. I have come across TOO many examples of this in the last few days or mention of it that I just had to speak on it. Me personally, I don't like getting attention. I like to keep a low profile. I don't like getting 1000 compliments. I get my share (and although I'm working on it) I tend to find some way to downplay what is said. Them: "You are beautiful" Me: "I'm aighhttt". Don't get me wrong. My self esteem is fine. I don't think negatively of myself. I just don't think I'm above and beyond the norm. No I'm not ugly (not to me anyway, I'm sure somebody thinks so and hey...everybody is entitled to their own thoughts and opinions). But enough about me...I'm here to discuss those seeking attention. First and foremost you have those who act like they DON'T want attention but yet do things to bring it on themselves. For example, you posting half naked pics all over social networking sites but then you get mad when the type of attention you draw are sex hungry perverts who have not an inkling of respect. Well you put it all out there in your "advertisement" and now you have buyers....so what's the problem?

Then you have the 'damsel in distress' attention seekers. Always hurting something or something is always happening to them so that someone is supposed to cater to their need or want. So that someone will ask what is wrong, what happened, how did it happen. Get the f**k all the way outta here and WOMEN/MAN up....cuz indeed...males seek attention just like females. They just have different methods. They can play needy as hell too. Been there and done that. If I want a child...I'll have one...ya dig!?!?

There are also the ones who just are straight up thirsty. No shame type attention seekers. Just making yourself look desperate. Really!?!? Is it that serious? Please hit up your nears Walmart, Sams Club, BJs, Costco, Kmart...somewhere..they selling Powerade, Gatorade, and Water by the huge case. Why you running behind someone who doesn't want to be caught? Trust the attention you going to get in this situation will be very temporary. If you looking for something solid and with longevity..this is NOT the way to approach it. I saw this quote a few weeks ago..."If you treat a man like a celebrity he'll treat you like a fan. " This couldn't be anymore true. Yet you see it all the time.

I don't know..maybe it's just me and my modest ways...but I can't stand to see people just put themselves out there and looking foolish trying to get an ounce of attention. It's crazy. I put this up there with followers. Be your own person...why you chasing a fad? Someone else's dream or life? DO YOU!!! Nobody can do YOU better than YOU. Nobody can BE you...better than YOU.

Friendly Advice

"Friendly Advice"....the keyword is FRIEND. Advice - ad·vice/ədˈvīs/
Noun: Guidance or recommendations concerning prudent future action, typically given by someone regarded as knowledgeable or authoritative. Some people offer advice on situations and circumstances that they have not been through or experienced. Some people like to give advice and never take the same advice and use it in their own life. Some advice is given maliciously to purposely lead to a negative outcome. None of this is really what I want to speak on. I'm talking about genuine advice from a FRIEND. Advice is not the law. A person does NOT have to do as another says or else...however what I don't get is when it's not even paid attention to. How many FRIENDS have to give you the same opinions, thoughts, concerns before you wake up and realize that there must be something to it. I've had so called friends stop talking to me...yea so called because obviously they were NOT friends because I simply gave my humble opinion on something they were doing or had done. Things that from the outside looking in just seemed shady/wrong/out of character.... and no I didn't expect these individuals just to DO what I suggested but to appreciate the fact that I came to THEM and discussed it would've made a little more sense than to "disappear"...go through with it and in 100% of the cases...pay the price that I could foresee. Trust and believe the situations that I am facing or may face that I involve my friends and their thoughts on the matter will be taken all in. Any and all thoughts will be listened to and taken for what they are worth. I can count on one hand the individuals who fall into this category, but believe me...if I keep hearing the same ultimate "advice" from all those in my inner circle....I'm paying VERY close attention because it is definitely SOMETHING in their message(s). I get to make the final decision on what path I choose to take but I am always willing to listen to the opinions of those very close to me. Who know me sometimes better than I know myself and won't let me stray from what I like and believe in. I see it all too often when it's too late to listen....when someone has convinced themselves that everybody else is wrong...people have to learn lessons the hard way...I get that...but listening to those close to you can keep away alot of stress, drama, and heartache in ALOT of cases.

Tired of the Usual

As the end of 2011 approaches, I reflect on the year thus far. 2011 was VERY different from last year. New job...new faces....new place to call home....new friends....new family. Overall the year was mostly good...but it's ending with alot of "change is needed" thoughts. Along with the new aspects comes the same ol' same. Routines, promises, environments, activities.....time to say enough is enough on some of them. As easily as I get bored, I definitely get tired of the "usual" quickly. Even if it's fun..it gets old. I've realized that certain situations are just not going to change. I don't want to be STUCK in the same spot any longer. No progression....no hope for change in sight. BLAH!!! New opportunities are slowly presenting themselves in various areas. Not that I have ignored them, I've just had some doubts. I've questioned the outcome way more than I probably should. Time to stop questioning and just see what is really what. What you don't know CAN hurt you!! 2012 is the start of a NEWER, FRESHER, more GET UP AND GRAB IT me. Done waiting and hoping for others to wise up and realize what could be....time to seize the moments.




** Very wise words.....words to live by **

Dust settles.....You Shouldn't!

This quote sums up a lot! For one...it basically says to DO YOU! Don't do things for the reaction and approval of others. It's all about YOU! Also...it says do what makes you happy. Trust me, in the long run...settling will NOT....and I repeat...WILL NOT make you happy. It's a temporary fix for a temporary feeling/issue/problem/discomfort. Don't settle in friendships, relationships, jobs, ...NOTHING! There is something and someone out there for everyone and when it's meant to fall into place. It will. Maybe you can see it and they can't....and vice versa but your light is indeed at the end of the tunnel.

As they say, people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Best believe those who have been settled upon are there seasonally....and the reason...to teach you why you shouldn't settle. Realize your worth...stick to the plan. You know what you deserve and that's exactly what you should strive for. In fact....strive for BETTER than what you deserve. That is just the beginning. The bare minimum. It's a small world but it's plenty out there.....you just have to get out there....open your eyes and see that it's more than just this or that. Then open your heart, arms, and mind to receive said things. What's meant for you..is for you!!

Online Foolishness

Okay...let me just jump right in on this one.  It's bad enough that you have to deal with spam, phishing, viruses and the like when you get on the internet. Some of which...I still just don't get it.  I'm pretty internet and computer savvy...it's one thing to want to try to STEAL info so that you can get credit card #s and what not to try and gain something....but to just pass out viruses that only mess up others (strangers) computers with nothing but gratification that you succeeded.....pretty lame to me!  You also have people who grow an "extra set" because they are behind computers.   Being super bold...posting this and that but knowing good and well that if they were REALLY facing whomever or whatever they are so called going off about....it would NOT go down like that.   The internet has given some people a false sense of reality.  They are trying to live out lives ONLINE that they can't and never have OFFLINE.   The lies and fake personas online are a trip.  Especially when you encounter it with people that you do know in real life.   You know what they do and how they get down in their day to day life and then you see them posting talking a "good game".   Using words and slang that they DO not use in true to life conversation.   I don't get it....what is there to gain by being an online fraud.  I guess it's amusing but it develops FALSE relationships...and who wants those?  DESPERATE MUCH!?!?!        

Now...the other online pet peeve I have....why is it that individuals think that everybody is online looking for love.  That EVERY site is eHarmony or Match.com!?!?   I mean I'm sure plenty of people ARE online for that reason...but some aren't.  In some instances...it happens unexpectedly.  I can vouch for that.... but I for one am not using any of these social networking sites but anything more than a cure for boredom, keeping in touch with old and current friends, games, information, and entertainment.   In some instances, I have even clearly stated that I am not LOOKING for anything.   SMH....the boldness of some people is ridiculous to me.  Did you really hit me up saying you want to get to know me so that we can be "friends with benefits"???SAY WHAT???  (True Story) I am clearly not who or what you are looking for, Boo Boo.  Take that b.s. to the left...to the left..... You get a "Hi" and then the next message is "do you think we can exchange #s"?   NO PSYCHOPATH!!!!   Should I tell you where I work, my address, my SS#, give you the hiding place to my extra set of keys, etc etc?   I mean hell...you might as well ask me for that.  You do NOT know me from a simple hi.   Clearly you are going off of looks alone....ERROR #1.   It just burns me up.    It sucks to have to  limit your online interaction because of idiots who just want to seek jumpoffs or the like.        FALL BACK a little......geez!      

Wanting more....

You ever buy food from one place but wish you had part of the meal from some place else? Like you buy a Whopper meal but you can't stand Burger King French Fries and wish you had fries from McDonalds? Or you get a gift set but it is missing one item that you wish was in it and the one with that item has other things that you do not want. I totally feel this way right about now about alot of things.....but just like the examples above, I realize that in order to get the "more"....you have to go ELSEWHERE. If it's not where you are, then you have to go where it is. Sometimes you just have to sacrifice what you do have or move on to get to what you really want. Early morning thoughts......headache for days....but I realize it's time to cut some losses and go for what I truly deserve and want. No more half stepping...no more settli....hmmm nope I stopped settling a long time ago...it's more like accepting less than I am due. I could do better and I will do better. True happiness is something I want....and I haven't felt an inkling of that in a LONGGGG time. Going through the things I've been through...overcoming so many obstacles and bad things all the time....I'm overdue for happiness. Overdue for REAL people and things in my corner. Done pacifying losers and half a** so called friends. Done dealing with unnecessary stresses in life. Now I'm out for SELF...time to work on Toya. When I get my own self together...then I can find someone to supplement me! To make me even better. A better half.............yea (it all LOOKS and SOUNDS good on the screen....let's see if I can make this thing a reality)

To be continued......

To Whom It May Concern

I am still alive and kickin'. This heat is no joke. Heat indexes around 115 and 120 daily is a bit much. It's truly HELL ON EARTH right now. Life is life. Still grinding and maintaining to try and keep my head above water. Still living and learning every single day. Nothing super new and exciting to report unfortunately. Just figured I'd check in to the blog world since it had been a minute. I'll hopefully have a little more to say the next go round. Until then....peace and love my fellow bloggers, blog readers, and nosey a$$es! XOXO

It's time....

No better time than NOW to do the things that I want and need to do. After all of the things that I've been going through and dealing with and what is going on around me, I realize that it's time to stop putting things off. The trips I want to take, the ideas I have, the activities I want to partake in....yep...time to get it cracking. No more waiting on other people to get off their high horses or to make time to do what they SAY they are going to do. I have to do what I need to do for ME!!! Numero UNO! If I don't look out for me...who will!?!? Besides God of course.

Alot of things are beyond my control but those that aren't...there are no excuses as to why I can't go after them. Seize the moment. I look back a year ago and I was doing things that I had been putting off forever. Did it all turn out how I wanted? Of course not. Was it worth it? Yes If I could go back, would I change a thing? Nope because I got out of my element and went outside the normal box I stay in and I took a step or two towards CHANGE! Time to get back to that mindset. Stop letting the lack of motivation or action of others bring me to that exact same level. No more waiting around......it's time to make something happen. You either have to get with me or get out of my way!!!! I've been in my OWN way for far too long. If I have to take this road alone...then hey....I guess that's just what I will have to do!

I Got An Award......

So I had been doing well on blogging and have once again gotten caught up in this thing called life and have almost gone a month without a post, however, lil miss Sauniya' felt that I deserved the Best Blog Award. Thank you!!!!! *cheesing*




Well upon winning this award I have to:

Share seven random things about myself
1.I could eat potatoes every day!
2.I have always wished I had a twin sister.
3.I'm not scared of snakes but I am scared of moths.
4.I get bored SUPER easy!
5.I would love to live on a farm.
6.I wish I was short.
7.I hate being late!!! It makes my blood boil!!! lol


Pass the award to 15 bloggers (click on the manes)
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Answer the following questions
Favorite colour: magenta
Favorite song: All I Need ~ Mary J and Method Man
Favourite dessert: Peach Cobbler
Biggest pet peeve: LATENESS
When you are upset, you: be to myself/read
Your favorite pet: I want a monkey..but Jigga (my dog) is my fav
Black or white: Black
Biggest Fear: Being alone
Best feature: My eyes
Everyday attitude: If you keep it real with me..I'll keep it real with you!
What is perfection: Happiness
Guilty pleasure: Ice Cream....Sunflower seeds (crazy I know..not together though)

Dear Summer

Dear Summer,

I write to you today to let you know that although you are welcome on your PLANNED arrival date of the 21st of this month, it appears you are being very impatient and have already sent some of your "luggage" ahead of time. Your sun, heat, and storms have been creating quite a stir for a few weeks now. Although I love the time of year in which you make your way into town, sometimes the things you bring with you are not as welcomed. I am not sure where you are right now because I would gladly send you your "luggage" back and maybe you could pack a new set of things to bring along with you. Please don't take any of this the wrong way! I don't want any trouble when you do get here! I know how it is to want to go somewhere and being impatient, but we are trying to enjoy Spring right now. We haven't seen much of "her" in the last few years because you have rained on her parade and decided to hit the area sooner than you were scheduled to. Please be patient and KIND. It's only fair. Trust me, I love seeing you way more than your cousin Winter. The snow, sleet, and ice she brings is the absolute worst. I know you can agree since you 2 do NOT get along and are never seen together. They say opposites attract but I guess not in the case of you two. But anyway, I'll see you on the 21st of June. And not a day sooner.....RIGHT!?!?

P.S. Could you bring me a vacation also?? Thanks in advance!

Move....Get Out The Way

You ever feel like the world and everything and everybody else around you are moving but you aren't!?!? Like everyone else is making progress in life but you are just at a standstill. That's where I am right now. Like even with all the changes I've dealt with and experienced in a matter of a few months, nothing really is different. Same ol NOTHINGNESS! Not even sure if this is the best way to describe it. Not one to knock anybody elses hustle or movement, I say if you can move...MOVE. I'm just impatiently awaiting my turn I guess you could say. Maybe it's just me. The opportunities that seem to present themselves to me tend to be those of which I don't want to partake in or deal with. Most are those in which I have faced before and I don't see how going down that road again will lead to anything GOOD if it didn't the first time. Could this be what's halting my movement? Maybe....I could very well be the anchor that's keeping me in one spot. A spot I no longer desire to be at. I'm ready to MOVE!!! The song says..."move if you wanna...."...well I want to! Just wondering who's going to move with me!

I Quit

I got this from a friend who got it from a friend that got it from a friend...(you follow???) And I love it...so I'm posting it here to share it with others. Good words to live by. Need more people to follow these rules and guidelines. Real talk!!!

1. Quit arguing with people about the same old foolishness! Respect their position and keep it moving!

2. Quit telling people your secrets when you know they are not going to keep them! And if you keep telling them, then quit getting mad when they tell your secrets!

3.. Quit trying to pull people on your journey who don't want to travel with you. Either they believe in you and value you...or they don't!

4. Quit complaining about things you can't and won't change!

5. Quit gossiping about other people! Minding our own business should be a full time job!

6. Quit blaming each other for things that in the big picture aren't going to matter three weeks from now! Talk solutions...and then implement them!

7. Quit eating things you know are not good for you! If you can't quit...eat smaller portions!

8. Quit buying things when we know we can't afford them! If you don't have self control, then quit going to the stores! Quit charging things, especially when you don't NEED them!

9. Quit staying in unhealthy relationships! It is not okay for people to verbally or physically abuse you! So quit lying to yourself! It is not okay to stay in the marriage for the children! Ask them and they will tell you that they really would prefer to see you happy and that the misery you and your spouse/partner are living with is affecting them!

10. Quit letting family members rope you into the drama! -Start telling them you don't want to hear it! Quit spreading the drama! Quit calling other relatives and telling them about your cousin or aunt! Go back to #5 minding your own business should be enough to keep you busy!

11. Quit trying to change people! IT DOESN'T WORK! Quit cussing people out when you know that they are just being the miserable and jealous people that they are!

12. Quit the job you hate! Start pursuing your passion. Find the job that fuels your passion BEFORE you quit!

13. Quit volunteering for things that you aren't getting any personal fulfillment from anymore! Quit volunteering for things and then failing to follow through with your commitment!

14. Quit listening to the naysayers! Quit watching the depressing news if you are going to live in the doom and gloom of it all!

15. Quit making excuses about why you are where you are or why you can't do what you want to do!

16. Quit waiting on others to give you the answers...and start finding the answers for yourself! If what you are doing isn't working for you...then quit it!

17. Quit settling and start making your dreams a reality!- Quit being afraid and START LIVING YOUR LIFE! CREATE THE LIFE YOU WANT! If you want something different than what you have had in the past...you must quit doing what you have done before and DO something different! JUST QUIT IT ....... and START DOING something to create the experience you want!


"Life is short, but there is always time enough for courtesy and kindness."

Not what you thought huh?

~~~ ** ORIGINAL AUTHOR UNKNOWN ** ~~~~

Starting over....

Starting all over again, is gonna be rough. So rough....but we're gonna make it!

You ever put all your hard work, time and effort into something and then at the very end realize that the end result is just not what you wanted? Like you were building a house out of toothpicks...felt as if you laid each one side by side perfectly, applied just the right amount of glue, shaped it and made it just like you wanted and just as you get down to the final few toothpicks you look at it and all of a sudden the house is lopsided. Yep, that's how I feel right now about a few of my "works in progress". Happy up until a certain extent and then....not so satisfied with the end result. In some cases, I can't figure out WHAT is skewing my view of the project. Why exactly am I not so happy with it? Can't quite put my finger on it. What's even worse is when others see what I have done or the work thus far and think it's great or going well and deep down I just can't agree. So what do I do? Do I patch up my "work" to pacify myself? Do I trash it completely and just say forget about it? Do I start a whole new project that's totally different? Or do I start from scratch on the same one, just from a different angle or using a different method? That's where I'm stuck like chuck as they say (whoever "they" are). Starting over can be a hard thing, but sometimes it's necessary in order to get the result that you need or want. I guess each situation is different and the required step(s) to the desired ending are also different. It takes time and alot of thought to figure out exactly what each "work" needs in order to prevail and be successful. For now...I guess I wait. Both ears and eyes open...for a sign that says how to proceed. It'll definitely be with caution!

Time

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder , but time always allows for people to grow apart. Sometimes there is good reason to distance one's self from someone else. Whether it be a break, opportunity, disagreement, and sometimes it's just life. Moving on with your life sometimes means leaving others behind. People who do not contribute anything positive to your life or situation are people not necessary. Seasonal individuals are often in your life just for a short period of time...to serve some purpose and then they are gone. Often times this leaves a person feeling as if their time was wasted, but trust that it was not. This person might've showed you something within yourself that you didn't know. They might've given you some sort of life lesson about who and who not to deal with or how to handle certain things.

Time is something of importance to me. Being the impatient person that I am, I like to be ON time and I also don't like to feel that my time has been wasted. Those two things are a HUGE thing for me. I know that some things take time. You shouldn't RUSH into situations, relationships, agreements, etc. This I know....but I know that I value my time. Don't like to miss opportunities because someone else has agreed to use a certain "block" of time and because of this I turn down other offers for this time. A little consideration of others and communication is all it takes to make the difference between MAD/UPSET and understanding.

Time is precious and it should be treated as such. We don't know when our time will be up...so we have to make the most of the time we DO have!

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My Warning Label

People always ASSUME they know you or what you are about, however, if they aren't in your TRUE immediate circle then they are really making assumptions or going off of only what they do know or what someone else has told them. Well, if you want to know me in a nutshell..then know that I am HONEST. I look out for my FRIENDS. If I consider you a FRIEND and not an associate or someone to just hang out with to get out of the house (yep some people fall right into that category)...then know that I have your back. Nobody (not even ANOTHER "FRIEND")will have a pass to talk negatively about you in my presence. With that being said, my opinions and thoughts and actions are just that....MINE! I am not the president, GOD, a dictator, the Queen, etc. so I would hope that I do not have followers except on Twitter and those who "follow" this blog. I get accused of passing my opinions on others ALL the time. Crazy thing is, most of the time it's people who are older than me. Really? I didn't know I was that powerful that I can make someone do a total 180 about their feelings towards something or someone. And likewise, who my friends like, where they go, what they do, who they do.....that is on THEM. That does not mean that is how I roll or what I think. I am my own person. I live my own life and make my own decisions. If you don't like it...you don't have to deal with it. People I choose to have in my circle are MY choice. Trust and believe that I think out EVERYTHING that I do. I don't do anything just because it's the "in" thing to do....or because that's what one of my friends thinks/does...or because someone told me I should. Every decision I make is MY own and I take responsibility for each and every one of those decisions. I have a reason for doing the things I do. I look out for those who look out for me....shit on me...and get shitted on. I am not a "Tit for Tat" kind of person...instead I let the natural flow of things occur. I totally believe in Karma so I don't even have to retaliate. So if/when I chose to not ride with, be cool with, associate with, and/or discuss my life with certain individuals anymore....it's not because I just woke up and wanted to be a b***h that day. It's because I have reason to. It's 2011, and I'm done having negative/phony/immature/trifling people around me. If you aren't adding value to my life then you are being subtracted from it. Enough said. I have enough genuine people in my life that the loss of a FEW bad apples won't stop the harvest.

I'm not the most emotional person. I don't wear my feelings on my sleeve and because of this I probably come off harsh to those who do. I don't smile alot, unless I'm acting completely crazy around friends and fam which is what I enjoy doing. I like being around people who like to ENJOY themselves. Can't stand being around uptight, death of the party kind of individuals. The insecure need to keep it moving!

My life is changing ALOT these days...and definitely for the better. I've come to realize plenty of things within myself that I needed to change in order to achieve things I want to achieve. I've also come to realize that some things I thought I needed/wanted in my life, weren't really the business. All that glitters isn't gold and I believe some of these "wishful thoughts" were definitely gold plated. I'm ready for whatever life has in store for me. I've been through plenty of storms and rain, I feel that my rainbow is on its way!

20 Random Facts About Me!

These are 20 things that probably only my very very close friends and fam would know. Some are probably super duper crazy....but hey...that's me! :-)


20. I love horses!
19. I had an older sister. RIP Pamela Latrice Jones
18. I have 5 tattoos and I probably have about 4 more to come...at least.
17. I've traveled UP the East Coast...but Roanoke Rapids, NC is as far south as I've been.
16. I've never eaten lobster.
15. I've only been drunk 3 times in my 32 years.
14. I'm allergic to mosquito bites.
13. I got electrocuted by an electric fence playing Simon Says once. I won though!
12. I used to be pretty popular in the web design world. *I miss that hobby*
11. I like the smell of a burned out match! **crazy I know**
10. I love potatoes of any sort and could eat them every day (au gratin, mashed, fries, baked...)
9. I almost got arrested at Kings Dominion with my BFF! But we outran security.
8. Volleyball is my favorite sport.
7. I almost drowned when I was about 4 yrs old.
6. I've always wished that I could dunk a basketball.
5. "Achy Breaky Heart" by Billy Ray Cyrus used to be my jam! *don't judge me*
4. My brother named my dog "Jigga"...it has NOTHING to do with JayZ..im not a fan!
3. I still have 3 of my wisdom teeth. *strange...but only 1 was pulled*
2. I wear entirely too much black.
1. I despise the mall....in fact...I can't stand shopping!

Extra cash...no catch

Just a little something that I do from time to time to earn a few extra dollars. I am a avid reader and I NEVER read my books more than once. So they just sit on the shelf collecting dust. Well....that's what USED to happen...not anymore. I sell them here. Some books bring a bigger payout and of course some aren't accepted at all. You lose nothing. Even shipping is free via USPS. This is even upgraded with a big enough sell. Check it out! If you have books that are in decent condition that you want to get off your hands for a few dollars....this is the place to go!

All change isn't good!

Change when it's positive can be a wonderful thing! However, when a person changes (usually for all the wrong reasons) the outcome is very seldom a good one. For example, you shouldn't change for a potential mate. Be yourself....the TRUE you will surface at some point and all that you "worked" for will probably be lost. Why would you want to be with someone who doesn't like YOU for you??? That's just a set up for failure. Other times people change or shall I say put up a FRONT for an extended amount of time, but again....the true characteristics and personality will always resurface in one way or another. I have the gift of "smelling" bulls**t a mile away! And I'm happy for this sense. I've noticed quite a few people falling short of who they say they are or claim they are lately. You can only be fraudulent for so long. I'm just glad I have seen the light. People have changed BACK to old ways and it's sickening! But hey....that chick KARMA....she handles all that kinda stuff. Best believe she might not get you right away, but she's coming for you. BELIEVE THAT!!!

Actions speak louder than words...

This is something we've all heard and probably all said and it SO true. Many people talk a good talk but never back up their words. Some truly do intend to do what they say, another portion just say it just because it sounds good or better than the truth so in their own minds they think they are protecting the other person(s) involved, and then you have those who are just plain full of it. Seriously...don't talk about it...BE about it! Nothing I hate (yea HATE)...more than someone who says they will do something and then don't. No warning, no update, nada... Also, don't say you feel a certain way but then your actions show otherwise. You care but everything you do is full of disrespect or negativity. I just don't get it. It's so much easier to keep it real than to try to live a lie. It takes lie after lie to continue a lie. It's so much easier to keep up with the truth. Very little thought involved. You call yourself a friend, yet you throwing people under the bus...you running your mouth...you causing chaos with other people about things that have nothing to do with you....you doing underminded/back handed things... SERIOUSLY!?!?! What part of the game is that? I'm not sure when being a friend consisted of some of the things so-called friends have done recently. Maybe Webster updated the definition in the dictionary and I didn't get the memo. What I do know is...it's alot of people that have it twisted.

True friends stab you in the front. ~Oscar Wilde

2011 --- I'm not having it. All the phoniness and backstabbing is in the way! I don't have time for lies and false promises of tomorrow. It's too much LIFE to live to have to deal with the unnecessary.... and "talk"...is unnecessary if it's not backed up.