25 November 2010

Happy Thanksgiving.....

First off I must say....d#@! those holiday texts sure are annoying. It used to be okay when I only got like 4 or 5. But now that I get about 20+ and my battery is already looking sad...I no longer get all hype about them. I don't respond anymore...sorry fam and friends. I'm not ignoring you or being an *itch*, I just get sick of replying to each and every one of you saying the same thing.

Secondly, I am thankful for all that I have and have had in my life. Not to mention what is yet to come. I am not only thankful today, but every day that I wake up on God's green Earth. I guess today is just the day we give it that special attention. I'd be here all day if I had to break down all that I am thankful for...being alive, a job, family, great friends, .... (not in that order). This has been a fairly good year for me. I am happy for that because last year had some serious moments. Don't get me wrong, there has been some hectic and trying times this year but on the whole I'd say 2010 has been pretty good for me. I've been traveling, been more positive, been seeing a lot of people for who they really are, been more open emotionally, and just been DOING ME! It took forever it seems, but I finally made a major move this year and did something I should've done so long ago. I am so happy I finally took that step. Well worth the wait and hopefully it leads to more happy moments in the near and distant future. This year I've stepped back from always doing for everybody else and took some time to do for me! Feels good to treat myself on the regular. I think that will definitely carry over to 2011. :-) I see a lot of big things happening next year (some that I already am aware of.....and others that are just some "wait and sees".) Either way.....if you ask me...I'm Ready!

So yea...I haven't gotten around to finishing up "I Wonder" but it'll be completed before the weekend is over. No post Thanksgiving holiday shopping for me, so I'll have time on my hands.

24 November 2010

I Wonder....

So today it finally hit me....the motivation to write. I've had alot on my mind lately and I haven't really expressed it. I've mentioned a few things here and there to certain individuals but for the most part my thoughts have remained that.....just thoughts. So today's writing comes in the form of a poem. Yet another TRUE TO LIFE one at that. Each line represents a feeling pertaining to someone I know or have known in my life. This is MY work. Everything on this blog is under legal copyright. I am the legal copyright owner of all of the information on this blog, unless otherwise noted. No information on this entry or any other entry is to be used, reprinted, or reproduced without prior written consent from me.

:-) Ok, now that that is out of the way...you may proceed....


I wonder if she knows how much I appreciate all she does;
That without her teachings and her lessons, I might’ve stayed the hard head that I was.

I wonder if he knew that I still loved him despite all of the bad;
That I regret missing what ended up being the last opportunity that I had.

I wonder if she knows that she’s as close to me as a sis;
That all the good times and the laughs we had are very greatly missed.

I wonder if he knows that on THAT day he broke my heart;
By making a decision that impacted “us” and tore what was US apart.

I wonder if she knows that I just merely go along;
With all of her lies and falsehoods that flow out of her like a song.

I wonder if he knows about that crush that I once had;
One that I never acted on and now I’m kind of glad.

I wonder if he realizes that we are nothing more than friends;
That we can chill and hang out at times but then that’s where it ends.

I wonder if she realizes that he will never belong to her;
That she is wishing and waiting on something that never will occur.

I wonder if she knows that I admire her strength;
How she has overcome so much and that for her family she’d go to any length.

I wonder if he knows that he is the man of my dreams;
That it’s him I’d spend my whole life with….him –my King and I, his Queen.

I wonder if she knows that I have forgiven but will never forget;
The betrayal and hurt back then; our friendship having to be reset.

I wonder if she knows that none of us are fools;
That we know what’s really good, but we all just play it cool.

I wonder if he knows the potential that we could have had;
That things could’ve gone somewhere…it’s a shame that it went bad.

I wonder why people feel the need to boast, be extra, and explain;
If things were really the way you say…we wouldn’t have to hear it over and over again.

NOTE...this poem is not finished!! I probably should've waited to post it, but whatever. I couldn't wait. I have no patience. What can I say???? Oh..and maybe one day I'll release the names. LOL

So until next time..... to be continued.......

04 November 2010


I'm trying to figure out when selfishness became so prevalent amongst people around me. I mean too many people seem to just be out for self or concerned with themselves and seem to not care about the people they CLAIM they love or call their friends. I guess their problems are bigger than everybody elses. I'm not a mind reader so I don't know unless someone speaks on matters at hand. What happened to being concerned about the people you hold dear? I guess this is something I have to add to my list of endangered traits.

When you are down and out....struggling...at a low point..or ill, you sure do find out who really cares about you and is there for you!! Thankful for the handful of individuals who are still ride or die in my book. I definitely been going through some "changes" lately. I don't really let people into my world like that. Yea I blog but I never get too deep into specifics on issues....but know that those who do get the real deal dirt of it all....you are truly someone I cherish in my life and trust (until proven that I can't). It's crazy how often times it's the people you expect the most to be there...AREN'T and those that are there you never would've expected at all. Funny how that works. This thing called life sure is a mystery!