01 April 2012

The One That Got Away

Ever have a time in your life when you must decide between this or that? Whether it be an outfit, a destination, a job, a plan, a person. We all have. And how often do we think we just might have chosen the WRONG one. Didn't think things through completely!?! Yea yea...I know..everything happens for a reason...so if you were MEANT to make that choice or what not then that's what would have went down. YADDA YADDA YADDA. And yea I know if it's meant to be it'll come back around....okay so what if it does? And you STILL let it slip away!?! I can say I've been there and done that. All the what ifs, could've, should've, would've BS always rings back. Thinking about how different life might be had this occurred or had I said this or done things this way. Yet I realize..it is what it freakin' is. And can't beat myself up for passing up what I THINK just might have been an opportunity for something better...greater....SUPER!!! Sometimes we fail to look at the bigger picture though. The lessons we would not have learned had things turned out another way. The people we would not have met along the way had we dealt with the "other person". Life is amazing..it's tough...not doubt it's a bitch!!! But hey we all gotta live it...ONE DAY AT A TIME! I realize I've made the choices I've made in life for one reason or another. Not for others but for me...and although I can say some of those I've kinda had a little regret about. It's no point in dwelling on those decisions nor the past. What's meant for me will happen...not when I am ready for it to happen but whenever it's supposed to happen. I'm ready for it...whatever it is. I just hope it's ready for me!! :-) I know what I WANT out of life and I know that I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get those things. Some are just out of my reach or aren't just up to me. Some require to cooperation and mutual understanding of others. Once they get on board...the "ship" can sail the high seas! ALL ABOARD!!!!!!

SN: Yes this entry was kinda sorta all over the place....but hey..so are my thoughts and feelings at the moment. It's like that sometimes.