To You...

To You

To You I'd give my last
And ask nothing in return
To You I'd tell my secrets
Without one worry or concern

To You I'd give my right hand
And hold you up when you're down
To You I'd listen from beginning to end
Without making a single sound

To You I'd dedicate my life
At the drop of a dime, if you would ask
To You I'd lend all of my strength
No matter what the job or task

To You I'd give ALL that I own
Boost your name like you were a hero
But these are all thoughts that will never be
Because To You..I mean zero 

It's Gettin' Hot In Here!........

This heat is no joke. Today is going to be the hottest day of the year so far. Me and heat do NOT get along at all. Sad thing is, here at work it stays about 60 degrees at my desk. When I leave work, the blazing heat inside my car feels good for about 10 mins. That's how cold I am all day. In fact, I have my heating pad at work...just to lay it in my lap all day for some warmth. As much as all this equipment blows the circuits...no need in even attempting to bring a heater up in here.

 

I am off tomorrow. I am so glad. I feel the need to take like a day a week. I haven't completely figured out my weekend yet. So much up in the air stuff. Then its supposed to rain/storm like every evening, so that might have some kind of effect on the evening plans.

 

Talked to {name removed} a little bit last night. He had kind of been m.i.a. for a minute. After like 5 years of dealing with him, I am used to that. Since he's far away, of course it gets worse. That's still my though!! Through thick and thin. Been going strong with him for so long. Gonna take alot to turn me totally against him. Believe me, there has been some instances that I came close from walking away from our friend/relation-ship. But after giving things alot of thought, something always brings me back. I still keep my guards up though....that never changes.

 

I have another confusing situation going on in my life.....I know I can be difficult because I don't just express or share specifics about my life to a lot of people...but I mean I've run into people way more confusing to me. I don't know what are jokes, what is serious, what is just saying something to be saying it. I'm sure some people think the same in dealing with me. But generally...even my jokes are true thoughts and/or feelings. Like everything else...ima let this situation with this person play its course. I think its gonna lead to something though. We shall see.

 

I am still craving Slurpees®. I haven't had one in a minute though. I have been settling for Icees..which are NOT the same at all. 

98% Better

I have been kinda M.I.A lately. Not only due to technical issues (which are now the past due to a new computer...well nused computer that I copped)....but due to being ill for a week. I have not been this sick in forever. I had a ball the weekend of June 9th-11th. Every day was interesting and fun. Went clubbin'....had company....never a dull moment. But Monday...it all hit me like a ton of bricks. From top to bottom I was falling apart. I have just finished 1 of the 2 antibiotics I am on....and I am feeling pretty good...and I finally returned to both jobs on Friday. I wasn't my best. I stopped having to take Tylenol for pain on Saturday. *knock on wood* and now I am only dealing with intermittent pain in my right ear. Yea, ear infection in BOTH ears is part of what I was dealing with. Right side was like death to me. It still is bothering me some. I forgot to put some drops in there this morning because last night it seemed like it wanted to start back up.

 

So as a result of my feeling ill, I decided to stay in this past weekend. I sat in the house and didn't go outside until Sunday. It was kinda like torture because I reallyyyyy wanted to go out this weekend too. But hey, I got my priorities straight. I wasn't about to be back out and getting ill. My niece was over all weekend being her grown self...so it wasn't so bad.

 

This coming week I hope to get back to 100%. I want to go see "Waist Deep" maybe on Friday and then Sat. I plan on going to the Stone Soul Music and Food Festival. I want to get there when it starts around 12, but my mom wants to go also and she won't get off Saturday until 3 pm. So I'm not really sure how I'm gonna work that out. I'm gonna have to figure something out.

 

Hump Day!

Wednesday..needs to be Friday already. I am tired. Don't really know why. Even though it's Wednesday I feel like the week is dragging. Tuesday was very long. Work is insane. Full time that is. Too much unnecessary b.s. going on for me. I'm ready to be OUT!! I'm trying. God knows I am. Get a career job...that I deserve. Put my business degree to use.

Going out this weekend. FINALLY! Been almost 5 months. Can you believe it? Miss Party Animal...Club Patron has been chillin'. That's aight. Getting the crew together and gonna have a ball. Just like old times. And I can NOT wait. Get my mind off the things that are currently sitting there...nagging at me. I'm back on a 'what if' and 'should I' kick. It's all good.

I am tryna go somewhere soon...some kinda vacation. Just gotta figure out where I want to go. Something small to start will do. Heck, I'd be content with a theme park. Not that I really ride rides like that...but its not sitting at home. Which can get seriously old.

Next year is my 10 yr high school reunion. It is so hard to believe. Me and my ex best friend (yea ex best friend..we cool..but not tight like we used to be) have taken it upon ourselves to be in charge of this because those who were supposed to be in charge of it are slacking. We have pitched around a few ideas and are trying to get an early start on it. The Class of 96 got a late start and had way too much drama in their planning process and we are trying out bet to eliminate any drama that we can.

Well time to do some work.....if anything comes up that means anything or that I care to drop in and speak on, then I shall return.  

Short.....Fast Week

Short week...short entry. Weather is great....work is aight. Been having a ball really. Besides getting ill after eating some Mickey D's yesterday. OMG!! I already only eat their breakfast..but now I think I will have to boycott that too. It was a long 5 or 6 hrs at work after eating that biscuit.

 

Not sure what I am going to get into this weekend. Got this insane wedding next weekend that I am a hostess for. I am still not feeling it and I haven't even bought my dress yet. I guess that is one objective for the weekend. I been wanting to get my hair braided but it has to be a down for the wedding. OMG.....I am a hostess..NOT a bridesmaid. Who cares how I look standing at the gift table??!? lol Ima dip out super early though and go clubbin'...seriously.  




UPDATE:::::: I was semi-ill and could not make the wedding! 

Memorial Day Weekend

So today is Sunday...its around 2pm. Yesterday I woke up at 4:35 am. Why? I have no idea. But I stayed up an hour and a half and then laid back down for an hour. Then I was up for good. I got dressed and then headed out to a few stores. I washed up the whip and then waited on my mom to get home from work and her b/f to get here so we could had out. I went to the country to my uncles cookout. That is always crazy. All kinds of niccas (yea niccas..ghetto and tore up) showed up outta nowhere...got plates and dipped out. ?!?!?!?! Some things never change. I had a good time and had a belly full. I got back to Richmond at almost midnight. The only bad thing about it is one of my friends called right b4 I left and said she was taking her daughter to her dad and she wanted to go to the club. OMGGGG!! The one Sat night I have something to do in the longest and now I can't go. I was HEATED!!! So oh well..I missed out on clubbin'. Then on my way back I get a phone call from one of my guy friends to come over to his boys house. But I wasn't in the mood. I had been driving all day, had a stomach full, and a serious case of the 'itis'. So I just went home and never called him back. OH WELL!!!

 

So today. I woke up at 6:45am. Again..for NO apparent reason. I have been chillin' all day. Had a lil early morning company and then went to Wally World. Got me some groceries and some stuff for my friend's cookout that is tomorrow. My homegirl is having one today at 3 but I am not quite sure if I will be going to that or not. I don't really think I can handle 3 cookouts. You know lazy I would be next week....and full to the brim!!! I just checked the voicemail and my great uncle and his wife are having a BBQ tomorrow evening too. LAWD!!!!!

 

Well that's about it so far..not sure what I will be getting into tonight. One of my new buddies said its time for us to hang out....so I guess that might be my Sunday night events. I gotta call him to see what we gonna do. Not much to do around here on a Sunday.

 

THOUGHT: Why am I craving Slurpees® so hard? OMG I bought 2 yesterday and just had one. Now I want another one. What is really going on? I know what BETTER not be going on....  

Work, Work, Work!!

Yep, a sister is still on the grind. Still working 2 jobs Mon thru Fri. Gettin' that paper. But yes, still making time for myself. I am at work now actually. Today is going pretty slow. Yesterday flew by...the entire week is flying by. Weather is lovely. I am kinda sleepy right about now. I don't know why. Probably because I slept a lil more than usual last night. I ALMOST had to wake up by the alarm...but the ol' internal alarm clock kicked in and I woke up before that ever had to happen.

 

Cookouts and more cookouts. I think that will be my holiday weekend. Lots of good eatin'. I can't wait. Probably head down to the country on Sat. Be with the fam. I haven't gone down there since Sept. I am so terrible. I hate going down there now since I never really HAVE to. I went up and down that road enough when I moved back home and was still working in Richmond. Killed my poor lil Honda when I first got it. I put 20,000 miles on the joint in 4 months. YES...FOUR months. Warranty was shot all to hell. But whateva, you gotta do what you gotta do sometimes.

 

Might meet up with one of my new 'friends' or might just chill with a couple of the old ones. Gotta see what's good with them. A few of my peoples are going to Bike Week. I still haven't gone down there EVER. Something always comes up or my wack jobs won't let me off. Something of the sort.

 

I'm contemplating if I wanna go see Charlie Murphy this weekend. Been a minute since I hit up the Funny Bone. Time to make my presence back known in the spot. Haven't gone since my boy did his DVD live there. And being the slacker that I can be, I haven't even bought his DVD and my face is probably up on the freakin' thing. I know....I suck!

 

Well...until next time...... Miss Toya is signing off...(to pretend to do some work on the j-o-b).  

NEW WHIP!

It's been a minute so I guess it is time for me to post an entry. Life is going pretty good. Got a new whip a couple of weeks ago. I had set out to get something new before June. Was actually gonna go to NC to the place my mom had gotten her last car from because they be hookin' you up with some serious deals. But on a whim I decided to go somewhere local....and even though they were slow and the vehicle I wanted was actually in MD??!?!? I got my car (even though I set out to get an SUV...I know I know....I HAVE SEEN GAS PRICES) But that's what I wanted. Well the one I wanted like I said was way in MD..then they was tryna give me like 2006 Explorer. Im not feeling brand new cars..for one..they all look plain now. And also, you never know whats wrong with them. All I hear on the news now is recalls on a 2005 this or a 2006 that. OH no..let me go back a few years. I got a 2004. Its goodbye Fast & Furious ( I gotta say..my souped up Civic didn't really look like me..but it never gave me problems..I just got sick of buying low profile tires and they cost too much to buy so often)...and hell GROWN & SEXY!! My mom's b/f said...yea Toya's growing up..she moved past the 2 door cars and finally got something with 4 doors. Yep Yep...plus I'm like okay..I plan on having a kid in the next few years..and I learned from dealing with my niece and my car b4 the Honda...babies, car seats, and 2 door cars...NOT A GOOD THING!

 

Work is okay. Everytime I blow up and speak my mind....it gets alot better. They know ima serious asset to that place and they hate to see me go. So I let them know regularly (verbally and by cleaning off my desk)..that I can and will roll out if I need to or want to. Ball is always in my court.

 

I haven't been clubbin' like usual. Haven't been since Jan. actually. Sad, right!?!? That ain't me. I been just chillin. Went to Atlantic City a few weeks ago...and besides that I been kinda taking it easy. Chillin' with a few friends or whatever. Believe me...I do want to go clubbin' though. It's long overdue. Gettin' my dance on and trippin' out with my friends is a great way to relieve stress and take my mind off any and all drama. (DRAMA...so outdated..)

 

Besides that everything is going pretty good.

Deep Thoughts

*** THIS ENTRY HAS BEEN MOVED TO ANOTHER LOCATION AS TO REMAIN PRIVATE. TOO MANY NAMES AND SPECIFICS THAT I DO NOT CARE TO HAVE OUT THERE LIKE THAT. SORRRRYYYYYY!!!!! IT HAS BEEN MOVED WHERE I CAN STILL READ AND REFLECT ON MY THOUGHTS AT THAT TIME. BY MERELY CHANGING NAMES, THE ENTRY IS TOO PERSONAL AND TO THE POINT THAT IDENTITIES CAN EASILY BE GUESSED ***


Now back to your regularly scheduled program!!!!!

New locations...new entries

So I decided to take down my Xanga. Long story that won't be in THIS blog. ;-) That move landed me here at BlogSpot.

So anywayz, moving on to my life. I had a ball last night at the club with my homegirl and her cousin. Niccas were acting like niccas which is always a pain in the ass. They never fought but it came pretty darn close. I am so sore today from dancing so much. The lady fixed my drink horribly. Got a "Tongue in your panties". Should've tasted more peach..all I could taste was vodka.

My baby {name removed} called me 3 times yesterday. OMGGGGGGGGGGg You know I am so in shock. I sent him a pic and a lil video clip that I made for him telling him that I love him. Cuz as I've said so many times. I really do. He is my best friend. We've grown really close recently because he is finally truly opening up to me with his feelings and thoughts. I now understand why he's done and said some of the things he has. Out of fear of changing things..he holds back sometimes. I hate that..but I do understand it. I am usually that way also, but not with him.

Hung out with my homie,Chris, on Friday. That is always interesting and fun. I fell asleep on him (not ON him..well on his shoulder)...I was tired. It was like 3 am b4 he left. I slept a lil late on Sat. because of it.

Tonight I am going to the circus. Then I may be going to the club. Not quite sure yet. I'll have to come back with an update on that.

Well that about does it for now...I'll holla!!!!