The title of this blog is something one of my doctors always tells me when I visit him. He says that if I do NOT hear from him, then that means everything is okay. Sometimes that is comforting and sometimes it leaves me wondering if I missed his call, did he forget to call, do I need to call myself to see how everything turned out!?!? But that isn't the real purpose of this blog. The true purpose is to reflect on life and relationships and keeping those close to you...CLOSE TO YOU. People who REALLY know me (who are few and far between), know my story. They know what I've gone through. They know that I've seen and experienced some really tough times but I've continued to succeed in life despite the setbacks and very traumatic experiences. Things that have made me a VERY STRONG person and I can truly say that I know that I am. Sometimes it makes me feel TOO unemotional because I look at things so different from most. I don't cry alot...in fact, I rarely cry. I see death differently than other people and I deal with things and handle tragedy differently. I have always hated for people to say that I am 'holding it in'. Nah, that's not it. I have no reason to HIDE my feelings and if I am emotionally effected enough to cry or lose control, believe me....I do. But most of the time, that is not the case. Does it make me evil?? No Does it mean I don't care? No I am just me. Everyone doesn't react to things in the same way and people need to realize that. Is THAT the reason for this blog...again..NO.
In the past couple of weeks, I have seen 2 very nice, sweet, and caring people that worked with me unexpectedly lose their lives. 43 and 45 years old. Within a matter of 2 weeks. Something about the holidays that seems to bring about alot of sadness and bad news. Then there's the "death comes in threes" statement. I tend to not follow those kind of things, but in the history I've known..it has been oh so true. You just never know. People need to stop all the petty, stupid, foolish acts against one another. Take pride in every day that you have and show those you love and care that you do. Let people KNOW how you feel and stop trying to "pretend" and "cover up" what's real. You have to let people know while you can, as not to regret it later when it's too late. You just never know...and I know this ohhh too well. I know what's it like to have an opportunity to make things right/better, and not taking it and have that person taken away within a matter of hours. Knowing that the last communication with that person was filled with anger and then going through a period of blame. All weekend, every phone call to my house has been MORE bad and disturbing news. A suicide, a family friend hit while walking to help another motorist in need that may possibly lose a leg, and another family friend diagnosed with breast cancer and given only 3 months to live.
There is just so much going on right now. People have to wake up and realize that tomorrow is not promised, so you have to do what's right TODAY!!!
Wow....and to hear that starting at 4a.m. this morning, text messages are swarming saying that Katt Williams died in a plane crash. Seeing as how no news channels or ACCURATE websites have made this announcement, I'd go with the fact that it's a STUPID and LAME rumor. *shaking my head*. People have nothing better to do but start a sea of lies.