It also bothers me that people don't learn from their past mistakes or others. You say you want this or that....and then you run right back to the "light".....the headlights of a train about to cause a wreck in what is your life. What looks good to you isn't always good for you! You have to look at the bigger picture. What exactly is being contributed to you and your life? Anything worthwhile? Anything with longevity? If it's just temporary thrills and chills.....let it go. Real talk....you will miss out on the BEST trying to fool with what you think is BETTER than GOOD!