Man...life as you know it can change in the blink of an eye. This is truly an understatement. Without so much going into specifics to keep my nerves on edge and my anger under wraps...I will just say that the things I've been dealing with lately have DEFINITELY showed me who is really and truly my friend and out to see me succeed and do good. Let me first state that SILENCE speaks volumes. It's one thing to not know what to say specifically, but to not reach out and say ANYTHING when something is clearly wrong or you KNOW something is going on says A LOT for YOU as a so called friend to someone. If you have to just ask how they are doing or if anything is needed...leave it at that. And if you pretty much know you have something stupid to say, definitely SAVE IT! Stick to the basics and be done with it, but at least let the person know you are concerned and THERE. Secondly, don't say shit because it sounds good and having no intentions of keeping your side of this bargain. If you need ANYTHING, don't hesitate to ask. Hmmm okay...maybe you need to be specific on this. Maybe you shouldn't say ANYTHING....if you are only there to get info on the situation(s)....(excuse me to LISTEN)..then say if you need to talk, I'm here. If you plan to provide no kind of support or assistance, please refrain from saying anything at all. When you already keep a small circle and you realize how not reliable those few are. When you got people who barely know you helping you out more than your so called RIDE or DIE friends. When you get random texts or offers just to "clear your head" from people you haven't talked to in forever, that you expect to be the last person to even hear from, yet those who REALLY know the entire picture and story go on as if nothing is going on... I SEE A PROBLEM. But you live and you learn! This lesson is indeed one I have earned a MASTERS in. There are some people who are about to be in for a rude awakening. I had your back before....but now I wouldn't piss on them if they were on fire. This is one bridge you burned, tore down, and just left to rot. Find a new way over....because this route is CLOSED!!! I'm going to be just fine! Thanks to those who really have my back and have been grinding and connecting right along with me to try and help with my struggle.
Seriously ready to just pick up and start over elsewhere.....new places and new faces. Out with the old and in with the new!! I think it's time. You're going to miss me when I'm gone!! Believe that!
