It's that time....

..the time of the year that I ain't really feeling. March 8th of 1997 changed my life forever....and March 8th of 2008 marked a new GOOD memory for that day. However, the prior March 8th's events far outweigh the more recent one. With that being said....I'm gonna take a break from my blog and do me for a little while....I shall return.....at some point...with possibly lots of stories to tell. But until then...

Saturday, Feb. 14th

Yea to most, it's known as Valentine's Day. I've never really been a fan of this day. Single or not....just never got into the hype. This year especially.....this image sums up my feelings on the whole matter:

A break from life....

Ok so a friend sent me this...and I mean....what is really going on with the news and tv these days with these bloopers...first the porn commercial snippet that aired during the Super Bowl for some....to this kind of madness:





** SHAKING MY HEAD **

Oh so sick & tired

Have you ever just been sick and tired of being sick and tired? I mean I really just need to get away from everything that is MY normal life. I need a vacation something terrible and the sad thing is, the things that are going on to make me sick and tired are the same reason I can't get away right now. If that makes ANY sense. I just can't wait until the weather changes up and the warmth is here to stay. I then know it'll be gathering/cookout time for myself and my brother almost every weekend...so things will be jumping on the regular for the most part. Nothing beats impromptu gatherings...just shooting the s**t and drankin'. LOL Well I don't really drink like that, but hey...I gets my sip on occasionally. Until then, I'll rely on possibly hanging out with my new 'homie'. :-) Couldn't have come at a better time and just might be that CHANGE in `09 that I need. Well....that depends on if he is really the spontaneous, get up and go kinda fella that he seems to be. We shall see.

Besides that..more drama with the dog. I'm gonna end up in the nut house and the poor house behind this 8 lb mutt of mine. (I can call him 'mutt' since he's mine and he IS a mixed breed...but don't you DARE talk about my baby like that). All this crap he's putting me through, it's a good thing I don't have kids. He went from having seizures every 11 to 12 days...til this morning..he had 2 in less than 6 hours. *sigh* So more tests!!! Still no answers...and he'll be going to a specialist in the next week or so. I just hope it's nothing too major or that they will just put him on some low dosage seizure meds and be done. Just sucks because the medicine has all these possible side effects...and the seizures don't harm him..they just drive me crazy and upset the heck out of me.

Anywho, that's really all I have to report. Super Bowl was crazy...it's enough talk about that so I don't even need to go there. I'm not a football person....so I'm waiting for the All Star game on Feb. 15th.

Quick Post of Randomness

* So the birthday outtings were great. Went to see "Notorious" which was decent. It's one of those movies where it's a lot of detail in the beginning and then you realize that the movie is about to end in 20 minutes and it's nowhere near where the ending occurs (i.e. his death). I don't regret going to see it and PAYING. That is something I can't really say about too many movies I've ventured into the movie theater to see lately. The last movie I saw that I didn't regret was probably "Step Brothers", which was hilarious. After the movie, me and a few family members and friends went to eat, drink, and play pool (I just watched). Then on the 17th, the big club outting with my peoples. I had a ball. We had a lame limo driver that I care to forget...but all in all the night went farely well and I had a great time. I brought 30 in exactly the way I wanted to...amongst my closest and dearest friends/fam.

* After 2 days of not resting, I then ventured to DC for the Inauguration. It felt good being a part of history, however, our trip was one for the books. Buses arrived late...our bus got a flat tire on the way and it totally threw us off as far as time is concerned. The other 2 buses kept on trucking, and while we were in the garage getting fixed up...they arrived in DC. We were still only a small distance from Richmond. However, we did finally make it up there in about 2 hrs and 30 mins. Traffic was pretty nonexistent until we got into DC. I was wrapped up like a mummy and still froze my butt off. Took awhile to thaw out once I got back home too! :-) The trip definitely turned out to be an interesting one.

* I've stumbled upon alot of cool new blogs that I have decided to follow.

* My poor doggie has started having seizures out of nowhere. Head scan = fine, bloodwork = fine. He's had 3 in the last month and a half. The first one was almost not detected at all. The 2nd was pretty bad and lasted about 5 mins. The last one occured last Mon. and was not as bad as the 2nd and was worse than the 1st. I am hoping he doesn't have to go on seizure meds because the side effects far outweigh him having the seizures. He's rarely by himself so I guess we shall see what happens. Hopefully they go away.

* I can't wait for clocks to go up an hour. I have never liked this time. I am not a sleeper and an xtra hour is just an hour earlier that I am awake than I truly need to be.

* I am ready for spring also. I can't deal with the cold any longer.

* I have been sleeping all day and will be up allllll night! Typical Sunday for me!

* Oh yea...quick shout to my new followers.

I guess this does it for now....I really didn't have anything with substance to talk about!

Officially Grown...well more official than before

So in less than an hour, it will be Jan 12th, 2009. I will be turning 30. Unlike some of my closest friends who said they'd probably cry and feel old as dirt, I am HAPPY to see 30 get here. Yep, I am REALLY on my grown woman now and I am NOT looking back. 2009 has started with plenty of stress, drama, and trying times for me, BUT I am pushing forward. So I welcome 30 years old with open arms (I say that now)..and at 6:26 a.m. (my true birth time)...I will be grinning from ear to ear.

Things aren't always what they seem

How true is this blog title!!!? We've all come across offers, products, and especially people who come across as one way but upon interacting, using, or partaking in them....TOTALLY something else. Well this really has nothing to do with this entry persay....except that I'm bored and wrote a little something and ummm...well...it too fits the bill.



I'm Falling

I didn't see it coming
My body was in denial
My mind wasn't ready
But it's been approaching for awhile

Taking over me completely
From my head down to my toes
Overwhelming feelings and desires
Every second of every minute it grows

Can't control the way I feel
Can't fight it much longer
I must give into this temptation
If only I were a little bit stronger

I'm falling and I can't stop it
It's too late to turn back
To refresh my soul and body
This great voyage I must take

My body begins to tingle when you approach
I have desires to be in your grasp
When I feel you around me
I get speechless...body frozen..I gasp

I know I'm not the only one
Who feels this way about you
I know I must share you with others
They long to have a relationship with you too

I guess I'll take what I can get
Whether it be several or just one night
I'll give myself totally to you
No longer dealing with this internal fight

Sometimes I know I push you away
Not wanting you to come near
It's only because of stubbornness
Not hatred, dislike, or fear

Man, I hate to admit that I'm falling
But I have to keep it real
I have to let the whole world know
Just exactly how this all feels

I've never felt a "goodness" like this,
That penetrate my body like a knife
One that overwhelms me entirely
And effects my whole life

See if I don't surrender now
I'll pay for it sooner more than later
And nobody knows I'm falling
Except me and my creator

I've been wanting this for so long
I hope victory is mine
I'm falling...........into a deep sleep
Man, it's been a long time!!!!!


Yea....I don't sleep much and I have no problem with my body's need for very few hours of sleep to function correctly. More then 5 straight hours and I feel like I been run over. However, insomnia sucks. Being tired and not being able to sleep is a whole other ball game. This medicine I am taking for my tonsilitis (nice late gift from Santa...)....makes sleeping difficult. I HATE IT!!!! 3 more days of this crap!!!

Things aren't always what they seem

How true is this blog title!!!? We've all come across offers, products, and especially people who come across as one way but upon interacting, using, or partaking in them....TOTALLY something else. Well this really has nothing to do with this entry persay....except that I'm bored and wrote a little something and ummm...well...it too fits the bill. LOL!



I'm Falling

I didn't see it coming
My body was in denial
My mind wasn't ready
But it's been approaching for awhile

Taking over me completely
From my head down to my toes
Overwhelming feelings and desires
Every second of every minute it grows

Can't control the way I feel
Can't fight it much longer
I must give into this temptation
If only I were a little bit stronger

I'm falling and I can't stop it
It's too late to turn back
To refresh my soul and body
This great voyage I must take

My body begins to tingle when you approach
I have desires to be in your grasp
When I feel you around me
I get speechless...body frozen..I gasp

I know I'm not the only one
Who feels this way about you
I know I must share you with others
They long to have a relationship with you too

I guess I'll take what I can get
Whether it be several or just one night
I'll give myself totally to you
No longer dealing with this internal fight

Sometimes I know I push you away
Not wanting you to come near
It's only because of stubbornness
Not hatred, dislike, or fear

Man, I hate to admit that I'm falling
But I have to keep it real
I have to let the whole world know
Just exactly how this all feels

I've never felt a "goodness" like this,
That penetrate my body like a knife
One that overwhelms me entirely
And effects my whole life

See if I don't surrender now
I'll pay for it sooner more than later
And nobody knows I'm falling
Except me and my creator




I've been wanting this for so long
I hope victory is mine
I'm falling...........into a deep sleep
Man, it's been a long time!!!!!


Yea....I don't sleep much and I have no problem with my body's need for very few hours of sleep to function correctly. More then 5 straight hours and I feel like I been run over. However, insomnia sucks. Being tired and not being able to sleep is a whole other ball game. This medicine I am taking for my tonsilitis (nice late gift from Santa...)....makes sleeping difficult. I HATE IT!!!! 3 more days of this crap!!!

Welcome 2009!!!!

For your listening pleasure...the "O8 Rap Up"...the annual run down according to Skillz

Ready for `09

So 2008 was better than 2007 but looking forward to making 2009 MY year. A recap of my year includes a less than my standard birthday, a vacation-less summer, a bunch of disappointments from so-called friends, and LOTS OF LESSONS learned. It also including winning alot of tickets, a laptop, and a few other things. So yea, I've had a "lucky" year. I eliminated alot of stress causers and dead weight from my life this year, but I've also gained new friendships, relationships, and reconnected with fam I haven't really had contact with in a longgggggggg time. So I'd say this year was so-so. It began with me being in a cast up to my elbow from a wrist surgery and has ended with that same wrist causing just as much pain as it was in after the surgery. Go FIGURE!!! I was sick alot in January...a rare thing for me....and I was just recently sick as a dog. My year is ending like it began it seems!!

So what am I looking forward to and/or striving for in 2009....

1) a great two day 30th Birthday celebration


2) being in DC for the Presidential Inauguration


3) going to NY to visit the other fam I have up there


4) getting out and doing more fun stuff (less clubbin' more....something else!!)


5) taking a vacation, or 2, or 3


6) settling down *gasp* ....we'll see about this one


7) reaching that 5 year mark at my job. That is an ABSOLUTE first for me... 2.5 years is usually my max @ a place of employment


8) a new whip -- this is kinda TOP priority!!




I think that's the bulk of my list...I'm sure there's more. I'll revise the list as they get accomplished....added on...or changed! :-)